what am I supposed to do? when the best part of me..was always you?

Oh, Frida!

My favorite painting by artist Frida Kahlo. I love all her paintings idc. Her main theme was to represent women, women's bodies, birth, death, survival & suffering throughout the most beautiful, edgy "in your face" depictions. Gotta respect it. Madonna has this one in her home & I WANT IT!

R.I.P Frida

Perfect Memory

I swear when it comes to pain, my memory's perfect
everything keeps coming back over and over
I remember it all...I wish I could just remember to forget

Love Back

I can't fully love you like I want to right now
Past wounds, they haven't healed yet
Past tears..they haven't dried yet
The internal bleeding, you can't see it
but it hasn't stopped yet
My fears, they haven't been overcome yet
I gave my love, but now I want it back

a life restricted

Doesn't it hurt knowing that there's an extraordinary love out there for you but you cant fully have it?
Doesn't it hurt knowing that there's someone who wants to love you and give you everything they have but you can't bring yourself to let them love you?
Doesn't it hurt knowing that there's an exciting, vibrant life out there for you but you cant fully live it?
Doesn't it hurt knowing that others are experiencing everything there is to experience but yet you're subdued to restrictions. Subdued to "What ifs" Subdued to "Be Carefuls" Subdued to "No, because's" all your life. Subdued to just you, them and their worries. What about YOUR LIFE? You were born into this world to make your own choices. Not to have all of your choices made for you.
Doesn't it hurt knowing that there's an exciting, vibrant life out there for you but you can't fully have it? ...Yeah
As soon as you get a little taste of it, its taken away from you..
As if to say "Okay! That's enough...enough of LIFE ITSELF" for you
Come back into your little place of hiding
Doesn't it hurt to have to say to the one you've wanted all your life
I know you're not my girlfriend/boyfriend but..I swear that I love you
If you love them..what's stopping them from being yours?
Go for it! Oh, but you cant.
Some people are afraid to go for it for various reasons:
Past experiences, past broken hearts, past broken promises, empty promises, parents holding them back from the true love and happiness and LIFE that they deserve all because they want to "protect them" but infact they are sheltering them from LIFE...itself.
Life includes heartache, happiness, pain, laughter, joy, tears.
In order to live you have to experience pain in order to keep going
So why deny someone of that?
Many of us miss out on love.
Miss out on happiness.
Miss out on even pain.
All Because of a life restricted.

Bel et Hardi

Many: She looks so snotty, She's so short.

Me: Bel et Hardi, Hardi et Bel

Many: Wait, Im sorry. Pardon me?

Me: Bel et Hardi, Hardi et Bel

Many: Her eyes are so big, her wrist so small. She looks frail!

Me: Bel et Hardi, Hardi et Bel

Many: Come again?

Me: Beautiful and Bold, Bold and Beautiful I heard you talking about me, so I figured I'd join in on the fun too.

Many: (Silence)

Familiar stranger

Today I met a boy that told me he hated me,
but I met him yesterday too. Only difference is ;
Yesterday he told me loved me
Today's a new day and so today there's a new him
My words, my thoughts, my feelings?
They all remain the same when it comes to you.
Sunday; 12pm -I love you
Monday; 3pm - Yep, I still love you
Today I met a boy that resembled someone I cared about
At first I thought he was someone I had met in my dreams
But then I realized I kinda sorta knew him?
I met him yesterday with a smile and today with a frown
Hello, boy I've known since forever.
Nice to meet you. What's your name?
He looks at me, his eyes vacant and bare and responds:
Stranger